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Review | Playwright David Adjmi’s stirring memoir, ‘Lot Six,’ explores the very meaning of identity

And but, Adjmi refers to the “mystic religious joy of childhood.” He delighted in a playground of “culture” — museums, performs, meals and the trove of New York City artwork that his mom recurrently uncovered him to. But there was a darkish depth to the sea of David’s formative years, even in the joyful recollections. As a baby, he turned obsessive about the musical “Sweeney Todd” — which maybe supplied an allegory for his invisible wounds, cuts hidden by the diverting melodies of outward appearances.

Adjmi’s devotion to tales is the axis round which “Lot Six” revolves. He recounts being deeply affected by performs, tv reveals, motion pictures. “We were in life together,” he writes of the tens of millions of individuals who all tuned in to observe the TV film of the week. “We shared a common humanity.” But David’s deep connection to those tales can also be emblematic of his capability, maybe additionally a curse, to shape-shift. “I’d begun to accept that living would be a kind of honed falseness — that, like a broken bone locked in a cast, one’s inner self only existed to be grafted and reshaped,” Adjmi writes. “Everything was foreign to me, even my own intimate life.”

Reality is simply as fluid as fiction, and Adjmi deftly performs with this rigidity. The blurred line reveals up in all his relationships: along with his therapists, his buddies, his siblings, even with himself. His household, particularly his mother and father, inform themselves tales about their very own lives and the lives of their kids that align with what they want or can settle for. David’s father wages an particularly insidious type of psychological warfare. As the father tries to regulate David by alternately supporting him financially and reducing him off — plying him with saccharine phrases, then ignoring him fully — the reader, too, is left unmoored, askew. While the manipulation and gaslighting are plain to see, evidently David’s father just isn’t absolutely conscious of what he’s doing. His conduct is symptomatic of a form of poisonous masculinity mixed with a striving for the American Dream, which itself is a lie. Adjmi’s prose is so exact and detailed as to convey the reader into the chest cavity of an individual suffocating from confusion: “I was no longer merely human, I was a blend of fiction and real.”

The spider net of masculinity that ensnares David is central to the tales he tells himself. “Maybe to become a man I had to contravene my own instincts,” Adjmi writes. “Was this freedom? Was it a new kind of morality? Would the morality empower me to survive life?” As David navigates his queer sexuality, his all-consuming want to please and be liked by others, and his alternately numbed and overwhelming feelings, he consistently tries to reckon with what it means to be a person, and he by no means arrives at a neat conclusion. Of course, there are not any neat conclusions, which makes the reckoning all the extra compelling.

As “Lot Six” assiduously charts David’s life — from early childhood via school, graduate faculty and his profession — the ebook turns into an immersive expertise, not not like theater. On each web page, readers are tasked with asking themselves the terrifying, stunning query: What is the story of a life?

Sarah Neilson is a contract author and ebook critic.

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